FINALLY

I CAN BREATHE.....

I did A LOT of thinking...found out a few things about myself and others.

For the first time in long ass time, I am calm. I am happy with my myself and were I stand. My problems had been taking care and it will go were ever it fate takes it.

I am no longer part of Orc Quest. I did quite that. Of course my previous partner can find someone else if she wants to. I would be happy if it makes it to publishing. It is a sad thing, but that's just how it has to be. As for everytning else I am able to deal with it with a clear mind and a open heart. I know when to open up and when to keep my distance.

The world looks so different when your mind is in full attention. It was really overwhelming at first, but I had to wake up some time. Nothing is going to be achieved if I stay in my dark cave and sulk.

My art is becoming better, it is getting more attention than it ever did before. I know it is because I am more happy and therefore, my art is more free. I am not doing much with the group anymore.

We are just doing our own things. It is not a bad thing. It was going to happen after everything that accured over the past 2 years.

I was able to talk to them about some of the problems. Myself and a friend of mine. What will happen? Well it is up to them.

Emough of that. It is time to move on. And no, I don't feel awkward at all after the chat with the group. I am actually quite relieved. My questions had been anwsered and now I am moving on with a project. Yes, a full blown project!!!

I will NOT reveal waht it is, what it is about, the title, specific info or anything of the sort. I will tell you this, it is almost done and I will show you all when it is completed. Since school is out, it will be done at a faster rate.

Thank you all for reading and yes, everything is fine. I am at peace and able to keep my mind at ease.

Stay tune for further updates on furture works!!!! Thanks again!!!

Take care.

Spring Life Cleansing

Yup..........for those who have been following my blog, I have not been in the best of all moods. Stress is getting to me. It is effecting my mental state and I had a lot of time to think. I found out a lot of things about poeple. Friends who are not really friends, co-workers who are just little insects, life......is just life. Found out a few things about myself as well. The things I see are not an illusion, I need to stop living in a fantasy. Stop living like a coward and spineless. I have a voice that is never heard except by a select few. One, who is always been there and helped me out when I first joined Obscura. And another, who hepled me out with a lot of shit. Finally, a true friend who is honest and is willing to listen. It took a few shitty ass poeple to show me the good side of life. Now it is time for me to breathe.
I am TIRED of the lies, I am TIRED of all the he said she said crap. I am TIRED of the insults. I am TIRED of talking to a bunch of bricks. Most of all, I am tired of waiting and working on things that will never see the light of day. I have my own works I want to do. I have projects too that i could be putting my heart and soul into. I AM TIRED OF BEING PORTRAYED AS A BAD GUY. Minnions, bitches, assholes, complainers, negative downers, I am tired of it all!!!!!!!!!!! It is getting to me and effecting my art!!!!!!!!
Even if I named off people they won't listen. They are too busy talking out of thier asses. I want to start fresh. I want to feel calm again. I met a few good people, as well as people who refuse to grow up. I don't care who this effects. You know who you are. Why in the fuck should I clarify huh???????? WHY?!?!?! It won't do any good of you listen with your mouth instead of your ears. Why should I be afraid to say this? Why? I said worse things. When it went bad with Joe and Jay.....I said the same thing....no one got it...it stil hasn't.
The people here, I met online and those who have not been with the group for a while....you don't have to worry about this. You are not to blame. The downfall of the group was going to happen anyways why fight it??? We can be friends who hang out that's fine. BUT don't call it an art group..IT IS NOT AN ART GROUP!!!!!!!!! Some of us deserves to call ourselves the art group, the rest NO!!!!! Not until you actually do work. I believe I had this discussion before. This is the last time.
Call me a bitch, call me a traitor, call me whatever the fuck you like. I AM DONE.

Typical Question

WHY IN THE WORLD OF FUCK DOES SHIT HAPPENS TO ME???? WHY????? WHY???? FUCKING WHY??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not going to explain because no one gives a fuck!!!!