FINALLY

I CAN BREATHE.....

I did A LOT of thinking...found out a few things about myself and others.

For the first time in long ass time, I am calm. I am happy with my myself and were I stand. My problems had been taking care and it will go were ever it fate takes it.

I am no longer part of Orc Quest. I did quite that. Of course my previous partner can find someone else if she wants to. I would be happy if it makes it to publishing. It is a sad thing, but that's just how it has to be. As for everytning else I am able to deal with it with a clear mind and a open heart. I know when to open up and when to keep my distance.

The world looks so different when your mind is in full attention. It was really overwhelming at first, but I had to wake up some time. Nothing is going to be achieved if I stay in my dark cave and sulk.

My art is becoming better, it is getting more attention than it ever did before. I know it is because I am more happy and therefore, my art is more free. I am not doing much with the group anymore.

We are just doing our own things. It is not a bad thing. It was going to happen after everything that accured over the past 2 years.

I was able to talk to them about some of the problems. Myself and a friend of mine. What will happen? Well it is up to them.

Emough of that. It is time to move on. And no, I don't feel awkward at all after the chat with the group. I am actually quite relieved. My questions had been anwsered and now I am moving on with a project. Yes, a full blown project!!!

I will NOT reveal waht it is, what it is about, the title, specific info or anything of the sort. I will tell you this, it is almost done and I will show you all when it is completed. Since school is out, it will be done at a faster rate.

Thank you all for reading and yes, everything is fine. I am at peace and able to keep my mind at ease.

Stay tune for further updates on furture works!!!! Thanks again!!!

Take care.

Spring Life Cleansing

Yup..........for those who have been following my blog, I have not been in the best of all moods. Stress is getting to me. It is effecting my mental state and I had a lot of time to think. I found out a lot of things about poeple. Friends who are not really friends, co-workers who are just little insects, life......is just life. Found out a few things about myself as well. The things I see are not an illusion, I need to stop living in a fantasy. Stop living like a coward and spineless. I have a voice that is never heard except by a select few. One, who is always been there and helped me out when I first joined Obscura. And another, who hepled me out with a lot of shit. Finally, a true friend who is honest and is willing to listen. It took a few shitty ass poeple to show me the good side of life. Now it is time for me to breathe.
I am TIRED of the lies, I am TIRED of all the he said she said crap. I am TIRED of the insults. I am TIRED of talking to a bunch of bricks. Most of all, I am tired of waiting and working on things that will never see the light of day. I have my own works I want to do. I have projects too that i could be putting my heart and soul into. I AM TIRED OF BEING PORTRAYED AS A BAD GUY. Minnions, bitches, assholes, complainers, negative downers, I am tired of it all!!!!!!!!!!! It is getting to me and effecting my art!!!!!!!!
Even if I named off people they won't listen. They are too busy talking out of thier asses. I want to start fresh. I want to feel calm again. I met a few good people, as well as people who refuse to grow up. I don't care who this effects. You know who you are. Why in the fuck should I clarify huh???????? WHY?!?!?! It won't do any good of you listen with your mouth instead of your ears. Why should I be afraid to say this? Why? I said worse things. When it went bad with Joe and Jay.....I said the same thing....no one got it...it stil hasn't.
The people here, I met online and those who have not been with the group for a while....you don't have to worry about this. You are not to blame. The downfall of the group was going to happen anyways why fight it??? We can be friends who hang out that's fine. BUT don't call it an art group..IT IS NOT AN ART GROUP!!!!!!!!! Some of us deserves to call ourselves the art group, the rest NO!!!!! Not until you actually do work. I believe I had this discussion before. This is the last time.
Call me a bitch, call me a traitor, call me whatever the fuck you like. I AM DONE.

WEIRD STUFF

Have nothing really to report right now........HERES' A COOKIE!!!!!!!!!
OH!!! This is for the winner that guessed what Transvan is ^^ You have to go here to find out more........... http://monicalynnevallejo.deviantart.com/art/CHIBI-Transvan-126188109

NEW YAOI SMUT

This is a new series that I want to do on my free time. I have drawn smut in a awhile and I want to hav some fun ;) I submit this at my sister's on the y! gallery, gallery for yaoi (boyxboy) website. http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/user/marskat/ so far thsi picture recieved more views than my art normally gets... ah well..sex sells right? I am having fun. I like the coloring in this, OH! YES! I recieved my Toshiba tablet pc a while ago and I have been practicing. Actually it is starting to spread in our group! They are FUN to have, but it is good to have some tablet skills too and keep the usb tablet, just in case. Also, don't rely on it too much becuase it a computer. Have some pen and paper time as well, even with the OUTRAGIOUS price raise in art supplies...damn. My pen was 3.49 at Hobby Lobby. I can't afford that, so I am using it wisely and for projects. Ball point can be just a s fun =3 Well that's all for now. I will try to get some more updates here.

P.s Totemo atatakaku narimashita ne????

English: It is VERY hot isn't it????

Still Peed

The previous post made me A LOTbetter => God! It feels GOOD toget it out! Theres' PROGRESS happening right N0W! WAH!!

ENOUGH!!!!!!!

Some things did not go right during our meetings for the, formally known, Comicas Obscura. Some things were said and things happened. Either one were not the best. Some people are/were pissed and so am I. What the fuck happened to this group? I don't fucking know. All I know that the things that were said really offended me and frustrated me to the extreem.

I went to the Pride march yesturday and for the first time in the past two weeks, I had fun. I forgot all of my problems and hung out with my friends. Now it's back to reality that is what ever the fuck the group is called.

We`are no longer obscura, and apparently, we never were.

I actually knew this since me and Christy decided to do something and get the group back into shape. Apperanlty some people thought it was clearly a "social gathering" BULL-SHIT. We have been scheduling meetings and starting to get productive. I don't mean to sound like an ass, but I WORKED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE FUCKING THING. I do not go there for a social thing, I did NOT walked miles to get to the cafe and back for some FUCKING social gathering that we can schedule at another time. Christy had worked hard. It will take time to get people working agian. That is why I am making a website.

This website is going to be a place for everyone to submit their works on a REGULAR basis. HOW????? By kicking their fucking asses that's how!!!!! Oh! And this is going to be mainly for me to produce artworks. GASP!!!! WHY??!!!! Becuase I don't know of I even want to produce for either group, but for your's truley DUNDUNDUUUUUN!!!! My mind will not be made up until I have a talk with Jay. First I have to get an e-mial back from him before that can happen. OOOOOO!!! Sarcasism????????? HAHA!

No one should not pissed by this becuase it is TRUE, why be pissed at the TRUTH??!

I AM pissed by what was said, and NO this is just not going to be swept under the rug. WE have to figure out what we are going to do as a GROUP!!! NO he said she said shit. I JOINED Comics Obscura for the PROFESSIONAL feel. To actualy have things published!!!!!!!! It was not ment to be a Jay v.s artists , but IT IS. I don't like GAMES, I dn't like to be USED, and I don;t like to be abandon like some worthless trash. The group does not want me to be the leader becuase I will be their worst NIGHTMARE!!

My sister does'nt want to be apart of the group no more for MULTIPLE reasons. NOW the fucking tension is at home!!! FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!!!!! So how about we do this, do what we have been doing for the past few months and START producing SHIT or GET THE FUCK OUT!!

Maybe I won't be around either.

BULL

This week have NOT been the best of weeks. I have been, what seems to be, an neverending ride of fury. I am just so PISSED with everything, I am TIRED of the BULLSHIT. I am SICK and TIRED of being PLAYED!!!! I am too old for these god damn mother fucking games. I HATE being USED!!!!!!!! NO MORE!!!
This is about what happened with the "Obscura" group. A LOT of BULLSHIT. So we are starting a new and continue without Obscura, since we are no longer needed, and make the groupe the way IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE. I am not going to say too much, but it has something to do with being disposable.
I am sorry that I have not been posting. Will catch up soon, hopefully with my COMICS that I was suposed to recieve.
LATER

ROSE TEMPRESS

Something I did just now for my final project in Advanced digital imaging. This is NOT advanced because I couldn't give two shits about it. It looks cool none the less.

EPIC ULTRA FAIL

MY ANIMATION WAS NOT COMPLETED IN TIME.
I tried to do a full animated 3 minute flash in two in a half weeks. My instructor was only expecting a ANIMATIC , which is just key points. My mind was set to FULL ANIMATOR mode and I just took on more than I can chew. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED.
I will finish it when the I am DONE taking a BREAK!!! Or when I get my Toshiba =3

FUNFUNFUNNYFUN

We were doing text thing in my digital class. I like how it turned out so I wanted to share it with you woowho! Have a BIG project due in a month so yeah busy busy busy. We finally got a title for me and Christy's comic!!! Its called Orc Quest DUN DUN DUUUN!!!!! Its a perfect title I should say so myself. Christy thought of it the other day. Thats it for now.

HELLO ALL

I have NOT been posting as much as I should!!! I realized that I need to update MORE!!! I have been showered with homework this weekend and am planning to get my own laptop with LOADS of memory and stuff for art programs. I may even get myself one of those all in one laptop/tablet gizmos. They are a lot of fun actually, I really love doodling on them. I do have a few sketches on there that I need to transfer. It is my friend's computer and he have been letting me tinker with it for a while. He is so nice!! So, yeah got a fresh new sketchbook and ready for some The Orc sketches!!!!!!! I will start updating more often with lots of pictures^^

For my KillerBunnySlippers=3

This if for my dear friend on Deviantart http://killerbunnyslippers.deviantart.com/ go check her out!!!

Hopepfully she will be able to view it on here. I oriinally had it on furaffinity, http://www.furaffinity.net/user/monicalynnevallejo/but she was not able to view it on there. Yes, she is the right age for this adult image. I did a color version for it too, http://monicalynnevallejo.deviantart.com/art/FOR-MY-KILLERBUNNYSLIPPERS-x3-114025587but it is not as nice this one. Hope you like=3

Happy Time...

Something I did during arts228, I am sorry, but I tried to not to doodle or draw in this class. Lets put it this way I felt like a damn drug addict waiting for their fix. I could not pay attention without a voice screaming in my head JUST GET ON WITH IT!!! This class is just so damn boring and my computer did not want ti work for me. I was a good girl and tried to do my homework. but none of the pictures I saved wanted to open. This was supposed to be Goku fan pic, but it came out a little flat. So I made it into a picture of a lineart drawing. Thats all for now, at least I uploaded something this week. I think I missed last week I am not sure. After this doodle I feel A LOT better. Just another damn hour to go.